Maybe I should see things from your eyes, since mine are too jaded to see things for what they are.
hmmmm.......
My favorite quote this week comes from my sister:
"Getting a divorce is not the worst thing that will happen to you. And if it is, you're fucking lucky."
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Furry Feet
I LOOOVE my dog. Adopting Gigi was the best decision I have made since the New Year. She is too cute and smart as a whip. I'm not bragging either! It is easy to get frustrated with a puppy who eats every shoe you wear, chases your cat, climbs on every piece of furniture and then chews on said furniture.
She barks all the time - especially when I ignore her, and when she wants something, or when she gets impatient (yes, she does!) and of course when she wants a treat.
In many ways (LOL), she is ALOT like me!
Gigi - March 2010
She barks all the time - especially when I ignore her, and when she wants something, or when she gets impatient (yes, she does!) and of course when she wants a treat.
In many ways (LOL), she is ALOT like me!
Gigi - March 2010
Psychic Friends Network
I think it is normal to wonder whether I will find love again. I know that I have not actually lost love, although I do feel like it's been a little displaced. I miss old routines. I miss knowing someone is going to be at home with me. I miss sharing meals and talking about the day.
It's normal to miss those things. Geesh, you are getting a divorce.
I feel like I have shot some Novocaine into my emotional center. I deliberately avoid stuff that will trigger a break-down like the plague. Thank God I don't have a big family that constantly will ask me about my Ex, because I don't think I would be able to handle that during the holidays like Easter - coming up.
I do find myself letting go a little easier now. Although I have to choose with whom I let go with. My BFF is someone who is always available to me, and who like me, knows exactly how this feels. I find myself sharing a little to much with new "friends" - who I really like - and want around. This is good and bad. Good because it shows a part of me that is fragile, human, yet jaded and wounded? Bad for the very same reasons.
I find myself looking ahead - a year, three years, five and ten years in the future, wondering if I will be able to get over him? What kind of life will I have? Will i find love? Re-marry?
These questions run-amok in my mind so much on some days that I feel like calling the psychic friends to see if they have any insight for me.
Seriously, I feel like it would all make this transition so much better if i just knew how it all works out - what happens to the heroine of our sordid story?
It's normal to miss those things. Geesh, you are getting a divorce.
I feel like I have shot some Novocaine into my emotional center. I deliberately avoid stuff that will trigger a break-down like the plague. Thank God I don't have a big family that constantly will ask me about my Ex, because I don't think I would be able to handle that during the holidays like Easter - coming up.
I do find myself letting go a little easier now. Although I have to choose with whom I let go with. My BFF is someone who is always available to me, and who like me, knows exactly how this feels. I find myself sharing a little to much with new "friends" - who I really like - and want around. This is good and bad. Good because it shows a part of me that is fragile, human, yet jaded and wounded? Bad for the very same reasons.
I find myself looking ahead - a year, three years, five and ten years in the future, wondering if I will be able to get over him? What kind of life will I have? Will i find love? Re-marry?
These questions run-amok in my mind so much on some days that I feel like calling the psychic friends to see if they have any insight for me.
Seriously, I feel like it would all make this transition so much better if i just knew how it all works out - what happens to the heroine of our sordid story?
Monday, March 22, 2010
Just Not Tonight
So, I need an outlet.
I have much to say yet don't know just how to do so.
I figured this would be good for me since I have had other successful blogs before, not meaning they were popular (which they were), but they were more useful for me to continue to express myself and be productive. I don't talk too much, and most of what I want to talk about is kinda off-limits in normal conversation. I don't want stuff getting back to my mom, you see.
The last thing I need is to get a call from her inquiring why I am airing out my dirty laundry for all the Internet to see. Or better yet - why the skeletons in my closet are rattling away - or chattering? hmmmmm....
In either case, let's just keep things here simple. This is mainly to get a few peeps out of my hair. My friend Lori wants me to write a book about my divorce experience. I am not sure I want to, and even less sure anyone besides Lori would read it. OK, maybe Lori's mom.
I don't even think MY mom would read it, since she doesn't like finishing books. Ha ha - let's see if that gets back to my mom.
My divorce is pretty civil so far. I don't think what I have gone through is much different than other women's experiences. But then, I've been lucky.
Very Lucky.
I have much to say yet don't know just how to do so.
I figured this would be good for me since I have had other successful blogs before, not meaning they were popular (which they were), but they were more useful for me to continue to express myself and be productive. I don't talk too much, and most of what I want to talk about is kinda off-limits in normal conversation. I don't want stuff getting back to my mom, you see.
The last thing I need is to get a call from her inquiring why I am airing out my dirty laundry for all the Internet to see. Or better yet - why the skeletons in my closet are rattling away - or chattering? hmmmmm....
In either case, let's just keep things here simple. This is mainly to get a few peeps out of my hair. My friend Lori wants me to write a book about my divorce experience. I am not sure I want to, and even less sure anyone besides Lori would read it. OK, maybe Lori's mom.
I don't even think MY mom would read it, since she doesn't like finishing books. Ha ha - let's see if that gets back to my mom.
My divorce is pretty civil so far. I don't think what I have gone through is much different than other women's experiences. But then, I've been lucky.
Very Lucky.
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